not what i thought

i thought we were on the same page. at least that was the impression he gave me throughout about the last 2 weeks that we have spoken. i finally met him yesterday, and yes i like him. he is everything i've been looking for in a person my entire life. i'm not over the other him, but this new one is nice. we went out, and it went really well all the way up 'til we got to my house and just hung out. perhaps it was something i said? it just makes no sense to me. i had no intentions of inferring that there were serious undertones to our date/hangout. i was just having fun meeting someone who shared so many similarities with me, and i thought that was that. now i fear it might be messed up before it has even begun or gotten a chance to begin. i just don't know. yes, i asked him to prom, but i didn't think he could derive anything serious from that.

and now i wonder about his affairs. he's telling me he needs to get his stuff straight before he can give consideration to us (whatever us is). now i wonder if he's tied to anyone. is he fucking with me? my mom was right, i was going to get hurt. karma, she said. but damn. so fast. this thing is just getting more confusing as time passes, and it hurts. i didn't think i did anything wrong. i just hope it works out, and everything goes back to normal. but damn, haven't felt this emotionally crappy in a while. rejection (or the possibility of it) hurts.