life-altering

that is exactly what pepperdine ycs was. life-altering. coming in on monday, june 23rd, i was skeptical when the counselors announced, "this week with literally change your life." on friday night at the banquet, i kept realizing how right they were.

the people i met in my dorm (number 11!), my rap group 4, the counselors, and the speakers all chiseled me into the person i am now. leaving my city and entering this new world of YCS has left me with so many memories. i am astounded to have this feeling of motivation and ambition as strong as i do.

i believe, for some reason, i got 1st alternate for girls state and didn't get to go for a reason- YCS. i cannot have imagined girls state being this much fun. everyone i met at pepperdine was hilarious and outgoing. not to mention, it was co-ed and i made a lot of friends of both sexes. girls state would've only allowed me to meet girls. i'm not sure how girls state is going for alyse but as of right now, i am so glad i got pepperdine. we had a talent show where narith and i performed "you are the music in me" from HSm and a dance wed night. everything was amazing.

and i am one happy camper :)

choosing

what i want: to stay close to my group of friends
reality: i'm too busy, always having meetings or trainings or whatever to make plans with them to hang out.

what i want: to still be considered a close friend
reality: i'm being replaced by people who don't do anything productive in the summer
and can go out and party every night or something like that.

what i want: get into an ivy league college or somewhere that kicks ass :)
consequence: im distanced from my group and closer to those with the same interests.

life sucks sometimes. but i gotta do what i gotta do and if this is the consequence, so be it. my future versus my high school friends? it's an easy decision.

first timer

i've always had an affinity for blogs. i remember how it started out on good old xanga and then moved to myspace, but in all honesty, i've never really liked the way the blogs there were set up. so we shall see how this goes :)

so school ended about a week ago and summer, thus far, has been good. i've been really busy with TSC camp counselor training and working as a volunteer TA for mrs. cervantes but i wouldn't want it any other way. this is my final summer before college apps and all the other senior stuff so i am happy with the way i'm choosing to spend my summer.

i will be leaving for the pepperdine ycs seminar with narith 6am in the morning on monday and i am super enthralled! i kind of sort of love meeting new people and being thrown out of my comfort zone so this is perfect. i'm gonna miss my baby a lot though. haven't been away from him for a long period of time (a week, hah!) in a while. but i guess it'll be a test as a well as a taste of what's to come when he leaves in sept. i'd like to think that sept will be a breeze for us and that we will be perfectly fine and we'll last but who knows, right?

anyway, i guess this is sufficient for my first blog. i think i'm liking blogspot!